The rocky road on getting my degree in Art Education has happened. When I first joined the major this year, it was perfectly possible for me to complete it by spring of next year - 2017. I thought I could handle it, but much to my disappointment having to work practically full time and go to school full time was just not possible. I was really frustrated because I felt like I had failed myself, my parents, my dreams, etc because I'm not succeeding at that goal.
I went and had to sit down and think for awhile. What could I do about this? Do I just give up? A part of me felt like that...And then, an opportunity at my work showed itself. I'm possibly going to be offered the full time manager position at my work, and it's exciting and nerve racking. I know I can do it because I've been a part of running the store for almost the last year, but it's a lot of responsibility. So a spontaneous, disheartened part of me knew that I could grow from this position in the company, and going back wouldn't need to happen. I could just manage stores for the rest of my life.
And that's where more thought came in. I looked at all the classes I have left to do. I'm SO CLOSE. I could indeed manage doing two classes while working at Family Video as the manager. I was hesitant for ARTED308, but I can get 38 hours at Family Video a week and take care of 40 hours in the field experience if I can do something early in the morning. It should be possible, and I'm hoping it happens. The whole point of doing this - staying in college part time and working full time is that for my last year (Fall 2017-Spring 2018) I will have saved up enough money that I can NOT WORK at all.
That's where all this came from. I cannot work and attend school full time at the same time. I want to be able to put in 100% effort, and having to worry about money makes it so I can't. And that is incredibly disappointing. But, I've come to that realization, and I know now what I need to do to get my degree. That is what is mattering to me right now. I've had some hurdles to jump over, I've been having some problems getting to the finish line, but I am going to get to the finish line. Whether it took me four years, or six years of college, I am going to do it. My mom might not be thrilled that I'm doing things the way I'm doing them, but I'm going to get it done. I want this more than anything, and I'll get through this rocky spot in my journey.
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